2010年9月29日水曜日

2010年9月28日火曜日

Stretching

Stretching is so good!! My body feel so good after stretching! I can live easier. Breath deep and move slow, this is the only point you have to keep.

2010年9月27日月曜日

Pannya

I read another book about the heart sutra. I read it in a cafe, my friends being there.

2010年9月26日日曜日

Out

I was out. I played with my girlfriend and friends. I wanna drink much more.

2010年9月25日土曜日

Miss

I miss to write this blog! I lived idly. We can't come back to life. We can't live again. We have to remain the fact.

2010年9月24日金曜日

Thinking Aloud

I'm a little tired to write here because of nothing I had done and read in English recently. There are almost nothing to wanna write. I had remembered The Heart Sutra. I wanna play piano more than guitar. I have to work to earn money but I'm going to stay the hospital to recover my disease so I have not much time to work. I'm thinking like that. Move now! It's the most important thing! Someone may say. Ok. I can't grasp the world, but, or so, I should move, maybe.

2010年9月23日木曜日

Relatives

My father's body was cremated. Only bones came home. I was sad. Then many relatives came our home. There were some I don't remember. Should I talk with them more? I wanna talk with more people.

2010年9月22日水曜日

Funeral

I attended my father's funeral. A large number of people came. We very thank them. Various things had been finished. I have to be thinking a lot of things. “What you need in your life is courage, imagination and some money.”

2010年9月21日火曜日

The Heart Sutra

The heart sutra is one of Buddhism sutra. We Japanese call it 'Hannya Shingyo(般若心経)'. I didn't know much about it, but Knowing more, it shows me more interesting aspect. I have wanted to know and thought what is I have to do, what I should be, what is the purpose of life, what makes us feel happy, etc. Furthermore I these days wanna know old good things like Analects of Confucios because of back action searching for new and Western things. Sometimes I feel I have no basis which I could stand on.

2010年9月20日月曜日

The End And The Beginning

Everything will end. Nothing remain forever. But everything are nothing. So everything are not exist, and remain forever. There are something we can't change. All we have to do is making effort about what we can change. My father had gone. What did he want us to be? I restarted, again.

2010年9月19日日曜日

Quarrel

I don't know why, but I'd like to have sex after quarrel and make up with girls. Do you think about that? Do you agree or disagree? I was in the hospital to take care of my father, but I went to see her. When I called her, she said something to me with angry. I didn't expect it. But I enjoyed. I didn't have enough time to sleep. I'm a little sleepy now.

2010年9月18日土曜日

GS

I went to a gas station to fill up my car's gas tank. Gasoline stand is not correct in English. They often called "gas station" in US, or "filling station". I had had first time to fill gas to new my car. The car we used before had gone. We now drive new car, which is Opel. "Baby you can drive my car!?"

2010年9月17日金曜日

Rainy Driving

I visited my friend to buy a suit, which is not for me but for my brother, again. It was rainy day yesterday. And because of rainy day, it was cloudy and dark. Further more, traffic was heavy, which was caused from rain too. They are enough to make me tired to drive. I wanna drive with pretty girls under the sun!

2010年9月16日木曜日

World Economical History After The War

I had read "World Economical History After The War (戦後世界経済史)". The book I bought 8 month ago had been on my shelf. I didn't know much about economics, so the speed to my read was slow. But reading it, there are several interesting in it. Economics is not bad, I thought.

2010年9月15日水曜日

Black Suit

I met my old friend. He is a clerk of selling suits company. I bought a suit from him. It's a black suit, formal. He discounted what I bought much. I enjoyed talking with him.

2010年9月14日火曜日

Lightning

It was thundering very strong yesterday. I don't experience that much lightning. By the way, do you know difference between thunder and lightning? Lightning is a flash, or several flashes, and the phenomenon itself, and thunder is the loud noise of lightning. I found that wily-wily was not one of names of tropical depression, but studying words and expressions are still interesting.

2010年9月13日月曜日

Hospital

My father was carried to hospital by an ambulance. But the time when he left my house, I was not there and by him. I was drinking. Being called, I was hurry to go hospital. Fortunately, something critical didn't occurred. I came home, and go to bed. But I was not able to sleep not because of the incident but because I always keep awake till late night.

2010年9月12日日曜日

A Last Day

Yesterday maybe last day to teach. Teaching is interesting, but I am a little tired. My students are good, I like them. But my motivation has gone. I need time to rest. I don't decide whether I will be back or not. One what I can say is, pay is good, indeed.

2010年9月11日土曜日

Money

Money, it's a time. Money, get back.
In capitalist economy, money have big power. The incentive for many people in the society is often occupied by money. Money is a reward. I would like someone to be found something better system than Capitalism. But when I'm in the system, I wanna use this system to be earn.

2010年9月10日金曜日

Fall

I often use "autumn" to express about this time. But "fall", the expression we can imagine to fall leaves from tree, is good terms too. I felt the blowing wind had changed yesterday. The wind included coolness. I like this season. Maybe because I was born about this time. But not only me but most of people like it, I think.

2010年9月9日木曜日

Typhoon

It rained hard yesterday. Typhoon come. I went to make hard contact lens, driving my car, and there were some small ponds on the road and I splashed. By the way, do you know wily-wily?

2010年9月8日水曜日

Economy

I thought that economics may be interesting and exciting. If I will work for an international bank or like that, I could earn big money. It's one of the points to charm me. Whatever, I will do something interesting.

2010年9月7日火曜日

Father

What does my father wish us? What does my father wish us to be? I can hear it from him now. But the time left us is short. It was my brother's birthday yesterday. His 22 birthday was not only good. I will live my life.

2010年9月6日月曜日

Hungry

I got up because of hungry. My stomach made noise. I don't eat much these days. Have a strong heart. I would do! Talk with many people! Saying about talking, I talked with Russian to be marine yesterday at night. She will ride on submarine. Submarine have nuclear bomb. Awful! What I have to do is what I would like to and doing it hard, very hard. That would make my life more interesting.

2010年9月5日日曜日

Matrix

I was suddenly left to teaching about matrix yesterday. Teaching another student, who I'm not teaching now, is interesting almost every time. It's not exception yesterday's class was. But The time leaving me was too short to teach all part of his exam contents, that I was hurry and talk quickly, so I was a little more tired than usual. If I had one more class, I could make him score higher. I wonder if he remember what I talked and what I made him do.

2010年9月4日土曜日

Learning

I studied English and math. It had been long time before I did. I'm sleepy when I am learning new things because my memory is full and my brain needs to rest in order to keep them tidy. So I took a long nap. My brain was rolling. There was not that feeling on me these days. I don't hate these experiences.

2010年9月3日金曜日

Akagi

I watched anime yesterday too. The title is Akagi. I saw this when I was a cram school student. Fukumoto's works are always interesting, but it's too long to play Washizu Maajan.

2010年9月2日木曜日

Four Half

I watched an animation, "Yojouhan Shinwa Taikei(四畳半神話体系)". The works said, "Everything is alright." Time has gone. And we can't go back. By the way, I'd like to eat Neko Ramen(猫らーめん).

2010年9月1日水曜日

No.1

I thought how to live and what and who I wanna be. I don't wanna be Igarashi Takashi and Che very much. They are who I love, but now I wanna be another. Do I wanna be Ichiro, or Steve Jobs? They are great. But, something else is. In addition, I wanna be No.1 in the world. So I need to choose what I am good at. What fits the best? The person I admire now is Mr. Feynman, I realized. I would like to be scientist. Really? Do I want? Do I mistake something? At least it's sure that I wanna be No1 and I don't wanna regret about my life.